Two, depending on how difficult or impossible your country's culture and government are, you might consider living in the closet. I know you're a minority, but I know enough gay men to know that it's not just lesbians that dream of making a stable home with their partner. You can't be the only gay guy who wants this. I can see two options: one, make it known to the gay community that you're part of that what you really want is a traditional relationship, and then really walk that walk. You can have a family while being gay, but it is significantly harder to do this if you live in a place where it's not legal to get married, and where the joke of the day is about gay men adopting kids. You live in a place where it's illegal for you to get married, and what you are yearning for is a traditional relationship.
